I don't wanna anything

FROM A DESPERATE STUDENT :(

Since when I came here, I have cried almost everyday.
I've asked to myself. 'Can I do that? How can I live here until next year?
What am I doing here? What for? Who cares me?
I just wanna give up everything...'

Sometimes it's so hard that I want to run away anywhere.
I'm not brave to show my tears to other people,
and actually, I don't want to show how I feel.
To be honest, I cannot show...because as I said, I'm not brave to do that.

At first I have talked to myself 'you can do anything, cheer up!'
These days? 'Please don't cry, don't worry!'

Ah.....
If I have a true and warm friend in here, it could be better. However, I don't have!
I wanna lean on someone who is warm and bright...
Can I make such a good friend...? I'm not sure.

I know I don't have to think like this, 'I want to go my HOME...' :(